Iowa Lady Loves The Ocean

Iowa Lady Loves The Ocean

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Saturday - July 29th, 2006

I know it's been awhile. Since right before vacation. I must express my disappointment. The vacation was just too damn short. It came and went so fast. I almost feel like it didn't happen. I made a huge mistake in including my sister and my niece. It changed the whole mood and I just feel totally cheated. My time with my best friend was great but I know it could have been so much better had I left my sister and niece at home. A hard lesson learned. The place we stayed at was great. The condo building itself was beach front. But our condo was street side. I thought I would be totally disappointed about that but I wasn't. The place was nice. And we only had to walk down the hall to the back of the building to the pool and the beach. I would stay there again. The draw backs were the weather. We had some long periods of rain. There was some construction just down from our building affecting the flow of traffic. And then my sister and my niece. Other than that I loved the time spent with my best friend. I just wish It had been longer and it would have been just her and I. We didn't have as much time to relax like last year because of trying to please the other two people. Big mistake. Ok enough dwelling on that we can't go back and redo. But I learned my lesson. And I do have some good memories from the trip.

My best friend gets married in less than a month. I am not sure what is going through her head right now. I am nervous for her. She is so much in love. It is going to be a big change for her. A change she didn't expect to be making at this time in her life. With her own two kids grown now and on their own. She is gaining a young stepson and a new way of life. But this is what she wants and I am happy for her. And she has basically been living with her man and his son for awhile now so she knows what is ahead. I can tell she has changed over the last year and is totally committed to her new life. I think this next year will be a total awakening for her in a lot of ways. And she is ready. I just don't want her to compromise herself for her new life. This is also her time in life to go for what she truly wants. Because she has a supportive man. She just needs to remember that she can now truly go for what she wants and still have a good life with J and C. I want the best of everything for her.

The wedding is going to be exciting. I think she is truly getting the wedding of her dreams. From the dress to the location ( aside from not being in Florida ) It will be beach front ( Lake front to be exact.) And I pray for a beautiful day weather wise. And I will be there standing beside her when she makes her new life commitment.

Change of subject. I didn't get my summer leave from work. Or haven't yet anyway. I had to go right back to work when I got back from vacation. It has not made me happy. I have been working my butt off on a new contract we were awarded. It is a two part deal. We are just about finished with the first part of it. That part is Due Friday August 4th. And I think we are going to finish it ahead of time. It's looking like maybe Wednesday at the latest. We have had a lot of good help from other departments. We are very grateful. The second part was due to start the middle to end of August. But the boss said they might push that up to start right after the delivery of the first part. Which would be GREAT for a couple reasons. We could finish it up long before the second due date and then we might be able to take some much needed time off the last few weeks of August. Before the next contract is due to start the first or second week of September. The second part isn't as big as the first part so should take much less time. We did the first part in around 16 or 17 working days. So I am praying the customer wants us to start right away so we can get it done and I can have some time off. And it will fall right before the wedding weekend. That will make it even better. And I might be able to go up there sooner than I have planned. OH wouldn't that be GREAT.

We have been fighting really extreme Heat here in Iowa. I know most of the country is having unusual heat waves. But this really sucks. You can't walk outside without it taking your breath away. The humidity is so high the heat index was 109 today. Temps were in the high 90's. It sucks. Florida was much cooler than here.

I am going to stop here I need to fix some dinner and then I can relax either in front of the TV or with my book after a cool shower. So ....

Ciao for now.
Diva in Iowa'

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Monday, July 03, 2006

Monday - July 03, 2006

The Purple Hat ladies:
lft to rgt. TG, Sb, Me, and JK

Ok I am back... believe it or not and it hasn't even been a week. I am going to share a photo here. I didn't think I would ever do this - share a personal photo of myself here but somehow I feel ok doing it. This is a photo that was taken on Saturday. At my girlfriend Tammy's house. We relaxed in her pool after the movie at the IMAX. Crazy as we all are we decided to form a new group. We are going to call ourselves "The Purple Hat Ladies". I will tell you more about our little group in my future posts. We had a great time on Saturday. It was a gathering we had been talking about for a long time. So it was finally great to actually do it. We had a blast.
Countdown to Florida ... 5 Days. Excitement is mounting for all of us. Maybe I will get brave and add more personal photos when we get back. You never know. I don't think I have an abundance of readers here if I do they are hiding in the shadows.
I have to run and get some thing done around here. Is anyone that is reading this and posting in their own blogs here having trouble posting? It takes forever to get the post to go through. Let alone a photo attachment. What's up with that?
'Diva in Iowa'

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Sunday -July 2nd, 2006

Next week at this time we will be on the beach in Florida. I am so excited. I did a trial run on packing yesterday. I am pretty sure I am going to get away with just 1 big suitcase for this trip. Other years I have taken 2 and come home with 3. Not this year. I vowed to not have to carry that much this time. Our condo has a washer and dryer so I am really not going to need that much for a weeks stay. I am taking 3 swim suits. I have 6 I found out yesterday. I didn't realize that. But I tried them all on and only 2 possibly 3 really look ok to wear since I have lost weight. I bought a new one just recently, a 2 piece. My very first ever 2 piece suit.

will be a short week at work. We have Monday and Tuesday off for the 4th of July holiday. So I will be working Wed, Thurs., and half a day on Friday. I hope it goes fast. There will only be 3 out of 9 of us in the office so I hope we aren't overloaded. I am sure it will be quiet but busy. Busy will be good.

Yesterday was a great day. I spent the day with 3 girlfriends. We first went to the IMAX theater to see "Posiden" with Kurt Russell. It was awesome on that huge theater. Then we went back my girlfriend Tammy's house. We just hung around the pool and had fun talking and laughing for hours. And then about 7pm. Tammy's hubby went and got us some pizza and we ate that all up and laughed and talked some more. It was a great day. And the being in the pool felt great. I was very tired when I got home.

I don't really have any plans for today. I need to do housework. I have movies from Netflix to watch. I have a list of things I need to pick up for the trip. But I think I am going to wait until Thursday or Friday to do that. That might keep me from spending unnecessary money. I am going to try to stay on budget while on vacation. But I won't be extremely strict about it. I will just be careful. NO unnecessary purchases. And we can have food at the condo so that will cut the expense of eating out a lot. This is a vacation for relaxation.

I hope to be on Sanibel Island next week at this time looking for shells. I will update again before I leave if I have time.

Ciao for now.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Friday - June 16th, 2006

I should be ashamed it's been months since I have been here. I do have a good excuse. It's called WORK. I have been consumed with it. We have been working non stop 7 days a week for weeks now. So I haven't had much of a desire to even look at my computer when I get home in the evenings. I look it all day for 10 -15 hours. I am not complaining. The money has been great. But I am on the verge of burnout and I have at least two weeks left. Two weeks until the promise of at least two days off for the 4th of July. And it sounds like I won't be getting my summer leave. We were awarded the big New York Contract. And the boss thinks he needs all of us to get it done. Another good thing. Work for a department that was going to close. It's like a breath of fresh air for us that have worried for months now. And it brings the possibility of more overtime through the summer. It's great. I can live with it.

I still get my vacation which is set for July 8th - July 15th. Indian Rocks Beach, Florida here we come. I am so excited. It is much deserved this year. It's going to be a great time for a lot of reasons. My best friend and I are going together again reason # 1. I am taking my favorite niece and my sister too. We all so need this beach time. It will be great.

Not much really going on with my life other than work. And the anticipation of vacation. Health is on a steady flow. NO real bad problems lately. Manageable. Diabetes is in check. Keeping it under control. No weight gain or loss recently. Holding steady. Taking all my meds. So that is great. Just mainly very tired. Which is understandable with the hours I am working. I am taking my vitamins every day too. So all is cool in the health department.

Depressing is the LOVE, SEX, companion department. It is nonexistent there is just no time and no one at the moment. I wish it were different. I could have used a loving, caring person to come home to a few nights recently. And GOD could I use a GOOD Massage. Sex might rejuvenate me at this point. But not a chance of that. So just let that thought move on out of the brain. Hopefully I can update that department soon.

This weekend is my Class Reunion. I am busy. Busy working and sleeping and working and that is about it. I had a few phone calls from former classmates but I didn't respond. I don't have any desire to get in touch with the people left in my class. Years have passed with NO contact. Why jump at the chance now. The one and only reason to go back is gone. Kurt passed away a little over 3 years ago. I miss him. I wish things were different. But you can't go back. So forward I go. I like to think I have changed a lot over the years. In good ways.

I wish I could make time to see the New Sandra Bullock movie this weekend. "Lake House" looks really good from the previews. Most recently I have seen "The DaVinci Code" and "The Break Up" both major disappointments. So I am due for a good movie. If I can stay awake.

It's time to stop and get things ready for tomorrow morning. 4 am is just too darn early to think about working. Two or three cups of strong coffee and I might be awake around 7am.
I will be back again soon.

Ciao for now.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Saturday -April 15th, 2006

I am back. It's been awhile again. Things have been busy with work. Getting some extra hours and the money is great. The department was downsized so there may be hope of keeping the job after all. I hope so. The benny's are very good. And I am so used to working only 9 months out of the year I am not sure I could go back to 12 months or a regular 8-4 or 9-5 job. I am so spoiled. I really like my job for a lot of reasons.

We have a beautiful day here today. After the bad storms of the week this is a nice change. We had temps in the 80's for 3 days straight. Very unusual for April in Iowa. And it stirred up some bad stuff and we had Tornados all around us on Thursday evening. The closest little town 15 mins. from me had 6 touch down there. Several buildings were destroyed. A lot of minor injuries. And only 1 death. Which was pretty unbelievable when you see the destruction that was left behind. Today lots of sunshine and its currently the 60's with a wonderful breeze coming in the windows. But a chance of rain later today. Welcome to Iowa.

Things are definite for Florida. Tickets are bought. We just need to reserve a place to stay. I will have that done in the next week. I am so excited. I am craving the beach so much. One of my co-workers in heading there next week. I told her I am so jealous. Gosh a whole week of the beach. It's going to be great.

Other good news.... I just got a call from a local realtor. There are two people interested in my dad's house. I am showing one of them Monday. This may be it. It has sat empty for over a year with paying bills on it all that time. It's time to let it go. I have thought about moving into it myself. If I didn't have my home I would be serious about it. But It's just not practical for me to do it. So I have to let it go. No matter how hard it's going to be. It's time to move forward and get on with Life. It would put me in a great position to get debt free. That is a big thing. And then if I wanted to make that actual move to Florida or anywhere else it would be a whole lot easier. Or even if I wanted to open that book store here I could. So it would be a very positive move. My fingers are crossed.

I am still reading but not as much. Currently reading "Savannah Breeze" by Mary Kay Andrews. I have several books checked out from the library. And several on hold. Also still buying them used. I need that book store.

My little boy had a birthday this week. GOD do I feel old. He turned 27. That's right I am an old lady. I can still the morning he was born. It took forever for him to come into this world. He has been my good luck charm. Being born on Friday the 13th. At 6:07am weighing 6lbs 7oz. My lucky numbers have been 7, 6, and 13. We are taking him out for dinner tomorrow as a late celebration. He will probably pick LoneStar Steak House.

I better stop here and post this and get some house work done. I am so enjoying the nice breeze blowing through here. So are the cats. Back again soon.

Ciao for now,
Diva in Iowa

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Sunday ..The latest News

Here we are it's April already. Wow time flies and I am not even having fun. March was a stressful month for a lot of reasons. I am hoping April will be easier on me. I am getting extra time a work. I am sure that won't last. Every little bit helps. So for now I will go with the flow. We got our bonus checks on Friday. That was real nice. First time in the 11.5 years I have worked there that there has ever been a bonus given. I have put mine away to spend on myself later. I deserve it.

Speaking of deserving something. Vacation. Yes, Yes, Yes, we are going to Florida. I got my best friend committed to it. July 8th-15th back to the beach. I am so excited. It will be great. I have been dreaming of it since we left. I crave the Ocean. This time my sister and niece will be going with us. Hopefully it won't dampen our time. We can leave them in the room at night and go out and do whatever we want. I am taking my geritol already getting my old body ready for a GRAND Time. Tattoos are in the future. We are going to do it this time. I am not going to chicken out. Something small. We will do it asap on the first or second day. 4 short months and we will be soaking up the Sun, sand and the sea. I am so excited. We are definitely not taking as many bags this time. I will pack much lighter. We can always do laundry if we need to. Hauling those bags around last time SUCKED.

So now I have something to look forward to. I need to concentrate on keeping my eating on track so I don't have any problems when we are away. I could stand to lose another 30 lbs at least. It's a big target but the main goal will to be keeping things on track so I don't have any flare ups while we are away. Because that will ruin my time. I am still going to Curves so that has helped me tone up some. I am going to work hard the next few months.

I think Spring has finally sprung here in Iowa. We have started having thunderstorms. Twice this week it was heavy wind and rain. Lots of Lightening last night. The temps have been slowly rising. Yesterday it was in the 60's no sunshine but it was still sweet. Nice walking weather. I love it.

I have been reading but not as much as I did in January. Since I last posted I have finished "Lovers and Players by Jackie Collins and "Night Fever" by Diana Palmer. both were excellent. I am reading a few more right now. "Alone" by Lisa Gardner and "Terri" by Michael Shiavo. The book about Terri Shiavo really surprises me. I knew she had an eating disorder but I never dreamed her parents were the way they were. I know this is written by her husband but it can't all be a lie. It's shocking. I also have another book checked out about Scott Peterson. "A Deadly Game" by Catherine Crier. It's pretty shocking too. He is a true nut case.

I am going to stop here. I think I need to get out and get some fresh air. So I am going to go for a walk before it starts raining again.

Ciao for now,
Diva in Iowa

Saturday, March 11, 2006

This Life is Yours

“This life is yours.
Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well.
Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly.
Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature.
Take the power to control your own life.
No one else can do it for you.
Take the power to make your life happy.”

Tuesday, March 07, 2006


OMG.... I did it. I got tickets to Kenny's concert. I am so pumped. I tried for hours this morning to get through online. ( The only way to get them through the fan club ) And finally around noon BINGO. The computer came up with 4 tickets for me. They are on the floor in back but hey we can work our way up. We are in the door. And I am so happy. The tickets were the same price as last year. And we were in the Nose bleed section. It sucked. So I am very happy with these. May 4th we will rockin' with Kenny. WOOOOO HOOOOO !!!!!!!!

Look out Kenny here we come.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Tuesday Morning... March 7th, 2006

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Sunday - March 5th, 2006

Wow, what a difference a day makes. Yesterday it was 55 degrees. Today we have snow on the ground. And it's sleeting as I write this. Iowa weather sucks. One of the many reasons that moving to Florida sounds so good.

I went to Curves yesterday and did my work out. It felt so good. I think I am going to like it. Then I came back and did some housework. Including stripping my bed and putting on fresh clean sheets and adding some linen spray. I then jumped on line and checked my mail. And by that time I had the fever to get out and walk. The sun was shinning bright. It was nice and warm with a slight breeze. I put my head phones on and walked and walked and walked. Before I realized it I had been walking for almost 2 hours. And I wasn't even tired. The fresh air felt so damn good. I came back home and had a late lunch. Read some of my book and then put in one of my netflix movies "Just Like Heaven" with Reese Witherspoon. It was a cute little movie. After that I had the urge to get outside again. So I went out and picked up my yard. And I couldn't stand it anymore. I came back in and got my headphones and went out walking again. I was only about an hour this time. The sun was starting to go down and it was getting colder. But it still felt good. All the walking I have been doing helps me sleep better at night. I think it's the fresh air. I was drifting off to sleep in the chair early in the evening but I fought it and stayed up until around 10pm. And then I slept in this morning until around 830. That is late for me. My fresh clean sheets felt so darn good. Along with my 4 cuddling Cats. I don't have much on my agenda today. Since the weather isn't very good. At least right now. Who knows what the afternoon might bring. I would like to get out and walk for awhile at some point. I am definitely not going to be going shopping. I am trying to keep myself from spending any unnecessary money. So I am staying out of the stores. I will need to go to the grocery store at some point today. I am out of milk. And my son will be here this afternoon ( our usual every other Sunday thing ). So I need to get some ice cream and some cheese and extra stuff to add to the pizza. We have a pizza night every other Sunday night he has off. We watch movies and eat pizza and talk. Something I always look forward too.

I do hope to get time in for reading. I am still reading "Lovers and Players" by Jackie Collins. I have 10 books out from the library. I have to get busy. Several are due back on March 13th. I know I can't conquer all of them by then. I will give it a good effort.
I better get my day started. Wow two postings in row. Is that a record for me or what? I hope to keep it up.

Ciao for now.

~Diva in Iowa

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Saturday - March 4th, 2006

I woke up to sunshine. We are supposed to have rain or snow today. I hope the weather man messed up. We have had a great last 4 days. Warm temps and sunshine most of the time. Can you say SPRING FEVER. Oh Yeah. I have been walking a lot lately. Trying to get two walks in a day. I walk on my lunch break for 15 minutes. And then again between 230 and 4 for a least an hour. I put my head phones on tune out the world and walk, walk, walk. I have decided after visiting Curves last week that I am going to join up. They are waving the membership fee ( $75 ) if you bring in a bag of food for donation. And then it's $30 a month for direct debt, or $39 cash, or $330 a year. So I think it is a real good deal. The only problem is their hours don't exactly work with my schedule. They close in the afternoon from 1-4 and open again from 4-7. And on Saturdays they are only open for a few hours in the am. I am going to make it work. I need some kind of work out. And this is a good place to start. I am signed up and ready to go. I am going to go this morning. And then I plan on going at least 3 days during the week. Wish me luck.

I am waiting to hear about the presale for the Kenny Chesney Concert tickets. They officially go on Sale next Saturday. So I hope they announce the sale soon. I want tickets so bad. It should be a great concert.

Work is going well. We were busy all week. Busy is good. I love when we are busy so I can turn on the CD Player and tune out the world. This week I was listening to books on tape from the library. Yesterday I stopped and picked up the new Bon Jovi CD so I might start off Monday by listening to music. I recently purchased the NEW Garth Brooks CD. It is really good. I listen to it daily along with Kenny's new one. A good way to start my drive to work.

Still dreaming of Florida. Hoping and Praying to be able to go in July. I need the beach. And I need pool time with my best friend. So we have to make it work out. I crave the smell, the feel of the sand between my toes, and the relaxation of being with my best friend. Pool therapy.

I am going to get my day started and head to Curves. Maybe I will get more time here later.
Ciao for Now .....

~ Diva in Iowa

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Tuesday - February 28, 2006

I am back after a short break. Not intentional the break I mean. I have just been busy. I went back to work on Monday Feb. 27th. So I have only been back two days. First day back my boss notified me of my raise. I got a lot more than I expected. A big surprise considering I didn't even think I would still be working at this point. And then today he told us that we will be getting a $300 bonus because the company did well last year. First time I have ever received a bonus in the 11+ years I have worked there. It makes me wonder. Last spring they were telling us our jobs would be eliminated by the end of 2005. Believe me I am just fine still being employed. I like my job. And it will be hard to go somewhere and start over after 11+ years and make the comparable wage. So please God if you are listening. I am liking these surprises.And the best one would be if we were told our jobs are secure. I would give up the raise and the bonus for security.

We have had crazy weather lately. It's hard to tell if it's spring or winter. The last 4 days have been amazingly warm 50 degrees. No sunshine today. But all weekend and up until yesterday we had bright sunshine too. It has been great. It makes me long for Florida even more. Iowa winters usually suck. And the month of December was making it look like it was going to be a bad Iowa winter but January showed something different. And February was even better. Let's hope March is even better.

I am feeling restless lately. I want to do something with my life. I have the bookstore still in my mind. But I think I also want to get some training in some area. Probably medical. Like Medical transcription or Medical Billing or Coding. With that training I could get a job most anywhere. I am thinking I would really like to move. Not sure where. But I want some new scenery. Ideally Florida would be the first choice. Right now I am working on paying off some bills and getting more financially secure. Then the thought of moving feels better. So I would just have the basics to take care of. I think I could live pretty simply. I would like to try.

I have been doing a lot of reading in the last few months. I just finished "The 5th Horseman" by James Patterson. It was good but not as good as his last two. Now I am reading some good old fashion smut. " Lovers and Players" by Jackie Collins. Up until about two years ago I had read all of her books. Then I took a break for awhile. So this is kind of new after reading a steady stream of murder mysteries. Aw .. variety the spice of life. It Keeps things interesting. Maybe I will start listing what I am reading when I post. I am keeping track of all the books I read this year. I am doing much better this year so far. I read 14 books in the month of January. That is a lot for me. I go in spurts. I so love to read to relax.

I need to update my reading list of blogs here. I read a lot of different ones and enjoy them. I like bloggers that are pretty regular at posting. Even though I am so not one of those. I try and try but sometimes it's just out of my hands. I am sure everyone is like that at some point. Two of my favorites are and two very different ladies. Two great blogs. I need to get them added to my list. I have been reading them for a long time. I am very sad when Dee @ does not post for awhile. She has her own bookstore. And I love hearing about it. And she cooks some great stuff and shares the recipes with her readers. Willa is an avid reader and lists her reads and she also knits and is a cat lover like myself. If you are reading this check them out. You won't be disappointed.

I am going to stop here and go and watch Oprah. I will be back soon.


- Reading: Lovers and Players by Jackie Collins
- Last book read: The 5th Horseman by James Patterson

Monday, February 20, 2006

... Go Inside Yourself ...

Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day...

~ Rainer Maria Rilke

"Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is."

- Mary Anne Roadacher-Hershey

Sunday, February 12, 2006

~ The Beach ~

The Beach

My mind is on a sandy beach,
my body stuck in hell.
A salty scent burnt in my nose,
a secret I won't tell.
I'd be much happier elsewhere,
In a warmer place.
Take a look in my eyes,
You'll read it on my face.
I wish I were back there,
this location never home to me.
I close my eyes repeatedly,
the beach is all I see.
I feel it sifting through my hands,
and squishing through my toes.
No matter where my body is,
this is where my mind goes.

Bridget Bush


I know it has been awhile since I have posted a personal message. And not always from lack of trying. The system sometimes does not work with me here and it prevents me from posting. I am hoping tonight I won't have that problem.

Here we are in the month of February. Where did the last two months go? I barely remember the New Year starting. And I am not sure how I feel the year is starting out. I think I feel numb. I am still working. I wasn't sure that was going to be the case. My job was due to end at the end of 05' but that has been extended. Hopefully until October 06'. So that is some what of a relief. Right now I am off on my part of my 3 month leave. ( I only work 9 months out of the year. 1 month off in the winter and 2 months off in the summer.) I go back to work February 27th. And I have no idea what I am going back too. I pray there will be work for us all. Spring is usually a busy time for us. And our department has been cut down to more than half it's usual size. So I hope we can all be kept busy.

My health seems to finally be in a holding pattern. I am doing well with the medicine. The weight loss stopped. That does not make me happy. I have battled a weight problem all my life so I would be very happy to lose more weight. Right now I am just concentrating on eating healthy and being able to eat and not having any problems after. I am doing much better. Now I need to get more exercise. I have been walking twice a day ( morning / afternoons ). But I think I need more exercise. I need to make the scale MOVE.

I was really hoping to have gone to Florida during this month. But that isn't going to be possible. My money situation will not allow it. So hopefully June or July for sure. Of course I can't go alone. I have to have my beach mate and sister. She is getting married this summer so we have to go and have BIG OLD TIME. We had a great time last time. Not sure we can top it. But I know it will be great just the same. That is a trip I will never forget. I miss my beach mate Ginger. It sucks living this far apart.

My life is getting back to normal as far as socializing again. Saturday I went out with friends to the movies. We saw "Final Destination # 3". It is not normally the type of movie I go for but I give in once and awhile and see something out of the ordinary. I wanted to see "Firewall" the new Harrison Ford movie. So maybe this next weekend we can see it.

I have been reading a lot the last few months. During January I read 12 books. I seem to be stuck on murder mysteries. Every once in awhile I throw in a romance or two. I am currently reading "Predator" by Patricia Cornwell. It has been kind of slow. But I am determined to finish it. I have the new James Patterson book waiting for me at the library. "The 5th Horseman". I hope it's as good as the last one "Mary Mary".

Ok I think I have caught up a little here. So I will stop. And I won't promise to come right back tomorrow. But I will try to come back soon.

Ciao for now ....

Diva in Iowa

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Big Strong Girl ...

its not now or never
its not black
and its not white
anything worth anything
more than a few days
and a long long night.

dont push so hard against the world
you cant do it all alone
and if you could
would you really want to ?
even though you're a big strong girl
come on, come on,
lay it down ~ the best made plans
come on, come on,
lay it down ~ are your open hands...

rest your head
you've got two pillows to choose from
and a queen-sized bed
hold out for the moon
dont expect connection anytime soon
feel the light
caress your fingertips
you have just begun
the word has only left your lips
maybe in time
you will find
your arms are wrapped around the sun.

dont push so hard against the world
you cant do it all alone
and if you could
would you really want to ?
even though you're a big strong girl
come on, come on,
lay it down ~ the best made plans
come on, come on,
lay it down ~ are your open hands...

Big Strong Girl ~ Deb Talan

If I accept the sunshine
and warmth,
then I must also accept
the thunder and lightning.

-Kahlil Gibran

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

A New Year ......

It has been way to long since my last post. I never meant to be away this long. With the Holidays and dealing with being sick time just seemed to fly by. I think I finally have things back on track. I am feeling better. Slowly getting back my energy. Trying to get back to somewhat of a normal life. I guess this is normal. Or it's my new normal. Things have changed alot. My eating, my sleeping, my life in general. The dr. said it's a life style change you have to make to be able to cope with your illness. Now that I have accepted it I am finding it much easier to make the necessary changes. I am eating so much more healthy. Feeling better and more energetic. Taking my medicine religiously. And getting more and better sleep. It has all made a big difference.

So here we are at the start of a New Year. I have made no resolutions this year. I know what I need to change. I didn't write it all down. It's inscribed in my brain. I have very good intentions to improve my life even more in 2006. I deserve to be happy and I deserve to be healthy. But it's up to me what I accomplish in 2006. The last year has been a big wake up call for me. For alot of reasons. I am not going to review the year in detail. Let's just say I have had a health scare, and I have had several major losses and I have changed alot. I hope it's for the better. I think I am well on my way.

I hope to get back on track here. Posting on a regular basis again. It's a good release for me. So with that said I will stop here and plan to come back again tomorrow.

Ciao for now
~ Diva

Live Simply Good

On this journey here is some words of wisdom to take with you.

Take nothing for granted: watch water flow, the corn grow, the leaves blow, your neighbors mow.

Set your own pace. When someone is pushing you, it is okay to tell them they’re pushing.

Remember a happy, peaceful time in your past. Rest there.Each moment has a richness that takes a lifetime to savor.

Taste your food. God gave it to delight as well as to nourish.

Notice the sun and the moon as they rise and set.They are remarkable for their steady pattern of movement, not their speed.

Talk and play with children. It will bring out the unhurried little person inside you.

When you walk with someone, don’t think about what you’ll say next. Thoughts will spring up naturally if you let them.

Quit planning how you are going to use what you know, learn or possess. God’s gifts just are; be grateful and their purpose will be clear.

Allow yourself time to be lazy and unproductive.Rest isn’t a luxury, it’s a necessity.

Listen to the wind blow. It carries a message of yesterday and tomorrow, and now. Now counts.

Create a place in your home, at your work, in your heart, where you can go for quiet and recollection. You deserve it.

Rest on your laurels. They bring comfort whatever their size, age or condition.

Talk slower. Talk less. Don’t talk. Communication isn’t measured by words.

Take time to think. Action is good and necessary, but it’s fruitful only if we muse, ponder and mull.

Listen to the song of a bird . . . the complete song. Music and nature are gifts, but only if you are willing to receive them.

Give yourself permission to be late sometimes. Life is for living, not scheduling.

Listen to the words you speak, especially in prayer.

Watch and listen to the night sky. It speaks.

Make time for play . . . the things you like to do.Whatever your age, your inner child needs re-creation.

Slow down; God is still in heaven. You are not responsible for doing it all yourself right now.

When you find yourself rushing and anxious, stop! Ask yourself why you are rushing and anxious. The reasons may improve your self-understanding.

Divide big jobs into little jobs. If God took six days to create the universe, can you do any better?

Learn to stand back and let other take their turn as leaders. There will always be new opportunities for you to step out in front again.

Sit in the dark. It will teach you to see and hear, taste and smell.

Pet a furry friend. You will give and get the gift of now.

Take a day off alone; make a retreat. You can learn from monks and hermits without becoming one.

Direct your life with purposeful choices, not with speed and efficiency.

The best musician is one who plays with expression and meaning, not the one who finishes first.

Take time to read . . . the Bible, poetry, great books. Thoughtful reading is enriching reading.

Take time to wonder. Without wonder, life is merely existence.

Work with your hands. It frees the mind.

Once in awhile, turn down the lights, the throttle, the invitations. Less really can be more.
Let go. Nothing is usually the hardest thing to do. . . but often it is the best.

Take a walk. . . but don’t go anywhere. If you walk just to get somewhere, you sacrifice the walking.

When things are in chaos and you are in a frenzy, ask yourself: What is right about now? Chances are, you already know what is wrong.

Just remember to take time, enjoy and make Life Simply Good!